Anyway... I wish, five years ago, I had known that this was waiting for me in my future. I bet the knowledge may have helped avoid that soul crushing hole of depression I tripped into. I might not have made such an ass of myself whining over my broken heart for so long. I might even have brushed myself off quickly, and accomplished something for myself in that first year.
It's hard to say. Maybe I needed to go through that hell. Maybe I needed to be broken down, so I could put myself back together stronger than before. Maybe that had to happen so I could experience something really good.
You're going to be alright. I love you, man.
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ReplyDeleteI know his is tough to hear, but you don't need that in your life at all. There are women out there that will rock your world without all that drama and heartache. You need to go no contact and cut ties before you start to get addicted to this dramatic shit. You're in a vortex of bullshit right now and you need to let go. If humiliation turns you on, it's cheaper to hire a dominatrix. I know it's hard to hear. And you might not find a another girl right away and cutting ties will be the most painful thing you have ever experienced. But think about yourself in the long run. Read up on this stuff. Shrink4men.com. Check out the "going mental" videos on YouTube. Read Shari Schreibers stuff. Get out. It's not worth your health and your sanity. You are missing out on someone who is capable of actually being good to you. Remember. You're a good guy.
ReplyDeleteI think at this point you should document her behavior to protect yourself. What she does is not personal. Its the behavior of an emotional child. You can't force a child to grow up, or understand empathy. You only have two choices. Tolerate the abuse, or walk. You are in control of what happens.
ReplyDeleteThanks Buddy,
ReplyDeleteI recently got out of a relationship with a BPD ex that I have to see all the time, since we work in the same building. So far, in just 3 short months, she's slept with two co-workers and chewed up and spit out the rebound she dumped me for. I thought I was going to be with her until the day I died, I've never been more wrong about something in my entire life and to think, I bought that lying cheating whore flowers and THANKED her being in my life 2 days before she discarded me like trash.
Thank you for this blog. I almost got suckered into her blame game. But that shit wasn't true. I was one of the best things in her life, she's just a crazy moron. I've switched lunch hours, changed my routines, and am in full no contact mode.
I hope that bitch checks both ways when she crosses the street, because I pray she gets hit by a fucking bus.
Buddy!
ReplyDeleteBest double check you've not come 'out of the fire, into the frying pan'... if it's another BPD you may still be in the 'honeymoon phase'... hope not though... enjoy your happy ending! :)
I was dumped a month ago, by a woman that fits the bpd/hpd criteria perfectly.
ReplyDeleteIt was a 6 months relationship.
This woman was married, divorced her husband and returned to him 5 years ago.
She promised me she will leave her husband and take her daughters to live with me and my son.
I am divorced with 3 kids, my son is in my custody and my daughters are with my ex wife.
Anyway the divorce devastated me financially, so at the time of my relationship with this woman i was living with my mother.
I am autistic by the way and have a phd in applied math.
Anyway it started with a love bombing.
She came by surprise to the place i was calling regularly.
She manipulated a colleague of mine to bring her there.
(we got acquainted through a facebook group that i run).
Apparently she was craving all the men there.
Flirting.
So i told her "you can not love me, you dont' know me".
We had great sex and then the hooks came in.
The pity, victim, great lover posture.
Then came the jealousy tantrums, provocations.
To be quite honest i did not react well, in fact what i did was humiliate her in our chats forcing her to appolgize in a demeaning way.
Calling her inferior stupid bitch.
Then in the fifth month she came to my place after we discussed moving in together and planning a wedding.
I was in great stress at the time, got into autistic tantrum (crying, hitting myself, wanting the mom i never had).
She hugged me and said she will always be there for me.
Next day she left me.
Said she never loved me, told me to never contact her again.
Blocked me on facebook.
A week later when i asked how she was doing she told me that she is gratefull for letting her go, to never contact her again.
Got drunk and sent her a text message calling her an inferior victim type bitch.
She blocked me on whatsapp.
Said she would call the police.
2 weeks ago through a fake profile in facebook i called her a narcissitic fat bitch. I guess she knows it is me.
Getting the silent treatment now.
What should i expect?
Is there a chance she will hoover?
DeleteAm i dead to her?
Was i nothing?
Pull yourself together my friend. Your biggest problem right now is you can't see what is waiting for you in your future. This road has always led to someone better. You may encounter a few more nuts along the way but in time you will be falling in love, and getting wildly fucked by someone that blows her away.
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